Tears and prayers...

I don't know how much longer I will be able to hold myself together. Almost every other day for the past 2 weeks or so, I hear about somebody I love passing away or going to the hospital in serious condition. Until recently, I haven't known anybody who has passed away, except for one in high school (which was a tragedy I might add). It's so sad to me to hear about everything that is happening to the people I love. And I wonder how I can be happy with these 2 huge events coming up, when all I can do is cry. In reality, I know that we don't live in a very good world and when someone passes away, they are definitely in a better place. But when I hear about children passing away, that just breaks my heart into a million pieces. Especially the children of people I have come to love and know quite well. I'm going to try to stay happy for graduation and the wedding...but I don't want to hear about anyone else dying. I think if I hear about one more person in my life passing away, I am going to lose it. I am going to keep praying...a lot. And try to hold myself together. I know that if I put my full trust in the Lord, everything is going to be okay and work out the way that it is supposed to. I have experienced a range of emotions from tragic horror to hope to complete humility and now to an assurance that God is the true giver and taker of life.
Ashley, my prayers go out to you and your husband, as you have lost your little girl recently. I love you and Preslee was such a sweetheart. Stay strong.